I have been so busy.  My massage practice has been fully booked and is basically fully booked out until I go on a short vacation in February.  On my vacation, I go to the California Bluegrass Association Camp, which I like to affectionately refer to as “band camp”, so it will not be a completely relaxing vacation. It will be a change of pace and fun, though!

We finished our month of PRIDE classes, minus one that we missed because I was sick with exhaustion.  We will make that up in March and at the same time expect to be finished with the rest of our application by then, as well. Hey, maybe we will even get our taxes done from 2008 by then :)

When I haven’t been busy, I have just needed down time, time for self-care, time for vegging out and time to exercise my self and my dogs.

But, I am missing something. I am usually a very social person. I have noticed that when I do see people, it is more often than not a goal-oriented meeting.  Either they are getting a massage, I am dropping something off, or we have a project to talk about.  It reminds me of times when I sat lazily with a girlfriend and giggled on a bed with her.  I am missing some leisure, some extended intimacy, some chill time.

I have no shortage of folks that I would love this time with, but when I am so overscheduled, I become protective of the time that is not work-related.

On one of these few-and-far-between social outings, I visited with a friend and we discussed our favorite book. A line says something like, “I understand the difference between people and things.”  And I do know the difference, but when my life gets so bogged down with logistics, I am not sure of how much  it  matters.  Sigh…

So a goal for the rest of the year will be to tidy up my schedule, which means containing my work a bit and having days that are completely unscheduled that will free up this kind of emotional room.